{The Beasleys} Our Love Story

I came across our long lost wedding website the other day and realized I wanted to capture all of our sweet story in a place I'd always remember. I haven't blogged since I met Austin, moved to Panama City, changed careers and got married - whew! Talk about a whirlwind!

How We Met

We have our lovely mutual friend, Mrs. Sarah Connor, to thank for our introduction (thanks for getting married, Sarah and Brett!!!). Austin and I finally met face-to-face the weekend of Sarah's wedding.

Sarah lived in Panama City near the Beasleys for years while she and Austin were growing up. Then, I met Sarah when we were both attending the University of Florida. We mentored at a church together, became great friends and then became sorority sisters through ADPi.

Austin's name came up several times over Sarah's bachelorette weekend. She mentioned that she thought we may just be perfect for each other...but of course, there was no pressure :) A few weeks later, Austin wrote me on Facebook and we started texting and talking on the phone every day. After racking up hours upon hours of long distance phone conversations, we both began to anticipate and dream about our upcoming meeting at the wedding.

The last day of May 2012 finally came, and Austin and I met on a Thursday evening in Knoxville, TN. He walked up to the group of girls I was standing with, we locked eyes and I heard that precious lil Southern accent that I'd been waiting to hear in person for a MONTH say "there she is."

With a line like that, you can imagine that the rest was history! Essentially, he had me from the first 'hello.' Austin says I played hard-to-get for the next couple weeks, but that didn't last long. We became best friends and fell in love quickly and perfectly.

It's amazing to think about God's incredible timing in introducing me to my husband. Sarah had invited me to Panama City during my sophomore year of college to go hunting with her friend, Austin. At that time, I couldn't go because of other plans, but Austin and I often discuss how much we've learned and grown since then. It's undeniably obvious that God was preparing both of us for a lifetime of happiness together.

How He Proposed

"I found the one my heart loves...I held him and would not let him go..." Song of Solomon 3:4

My future husband certainly knows the desires of my heart, and his proposal proves just that! Austin and I talked about getting married......well, probably much quicker than most people would think comfortable.The Lord had brought me the perfect man for me, my best friend and the one with whom I knew I'd spend forever. So, needless to say, I knew it was coming, but I had no idea when, where or how. I actually had myself convinced that Austin would probably propose in Panama City.

Because we talked about our future together quite often, Austin and I both thought it would be nearly impossible to surporise me with a proposal...BUT, he did :)

My mom started a group text between herself, Michael and me the week before. She said she wanted to take us to dinner before Christmas when we'd all be in town. We decided on the Chef's Table in Winter Garden. I said Saturday would be better for dinner, but of course Mom and Michael (and Austin) had already plotted to get me to agree to Friday.

Austin picked me up from work on Friday (I'm sure his version would tell you about what a pain in the booty I was! BUT, since I'm the author of this story, I'll leave those details out.). Regardless, I was done with work for two weeks, and I was as happy as a pig in the mud!! So, we started our drive to Winter Garden to meet the family for dinner (or so I thought). I just cranked up the Dixie Chicks and sang and danced the ride away...I thought Austin's quiet stares were simply because he was thinking what a dork I was :)

We parked downtown Winter Garden and decided to walk to the Christmas tree on the way to Chef's Table because we had been in Panama City when the tree was put up and lit. As we were walking by, Austin stopped me and pulled me to him. Then he said, "you are the hardest person in the world to suprprise!" He had the cutest look in his smile and eyes, and it didn't take too much longer before I figured out what was happening.

I think the precious words exchanged will stay between us, but the other parts of our engagement night were shared with family and friends, just like Austin knew I would want! My momma and the Beasleys were nearby witnessing the whole thing in my hair salon....helloooo, small town love :) 

After he proposed, Austin and I spent some time taking pictures with the awesome photographer. Then, we actually did make it to Chef's Table to spend some quaility time, just the two of us, celebrating and staring at the GORGEOUS ring he had just put on my finger!

Austin told me he had one more surprise for me. He drove me down the street to my mom's house, and the tears immediately started flowing when I saw the vehicles of so many loved ones in my mom's driveway. We walked in to the best celebration a couple could ask for! Austin had arranged for his parents to come to town, for my crazy big family to all be in one place AND to have so many precious friends waiting to hug us and celebrate with us. We spent the night reliving his proposal, enjoying lots of yummy food and drinks, and dreaming about our new adventure together.

"Whatever you did for one of the least of these..."

It’s been one of those weekends. You know the kind? …the kind when you don’t get to sit down and breathe for just a second. Or the kind when you feel like your to-do this is all but consuming. It’s been one of those weekends.

There’s something else that’s made this weekend difficult, too. It’s the evil that occurred in Connecticut on Friday. I’m pretty sure this is not a great thing, but I usually find myself able to separate “me” from the things I read in the news. Sure, I get sad for people who are sad, or I get frustrated with people who do silly things, but I don’t often get emotional reading news stories. The past 48 hours have been strikingly different. I can’t stop reading stories from Newtown. And I can’t stop crying over them. I know so many of you share my sentiment.

The overwhelming feelings from these news stories stayed with me as I attempted to lesson plan today and prepare to go back to my classroom full of precious children on Monday. Just a few minutes ago, I was reading work e-mails and looking through my curriculum…and I just had to stop. I couldn’t focus because of the overwhelming number of things on my to-do list. I got stressed out about teaching, about the expectations from people all over the school district and about the expectations I hold for myself. In that very moment when I closed my e-mail and put down my books, I took some time to think about all my kiddos. I thought about all the frustrating times I’ve had with them (and there have been many). I thought about all the time I’ve spent planning lessons for them. But most of all, I thought about the reasons I started teaching in the first place. They’re the same reasons so many people across the country choose to wake up in the morning to educate children and choose to stay up late each night grading, planning and preparing.

I know not every teacher in the country believes he or she has been called to this profession to serve the Lord like I do, but I still feel like all teachers are, in fact, servants. An educated child is one who has the capacity to one day make a productive citizen. A loved student is one who feels ready to concur the world.

I know it will be easy for teachers to look at the tragic events of this week and be scared or angry. But I want to share some encouragement – mostly because I had to do this for myself this weekend. A service to children and parents is a service to Jesus, who gave us life and a purpose. No matter how many years I serve in a classroom, I know they’re years that are for a greater purpose than my own. Jesus tells us that whomever we serve, we are in turn, serving Him. I take comfort in these words tonight.

Matthew 25:35-40

35 For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, 36 I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.’

37 “Then the righteous will answer him, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? 38 When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? 39 When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?’

40 “The King will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.’

Whether or not the media or people around the nation believe it, the teachers who lost their lives protecting precious children or who are now scarred and scared forever, were indeed serving Jesus in turn. God bless every person who chooses to serve in any capacity each and every day. 

A WHOLE-heart perspective -- I wrote this almost ONE YEAR ago -- thank God for the last year :)

A WHOLE-heart perspective

I just found this on my computer as I prepared to write a new post. I wrote this almost ONE YEAR ago. I don't know why I didn't post it at the time, but I've learned so much since January 2012. So here's a little insight into my refection on a weird time in my life. Thank God for the last year!

Well, prepare yourself, ANLTL readers, because here’s another big dose of Lynsey’s honesty. Right now (or really for the past several months), I find myself in the midst of a battle. I’m using the word ‘battle’ instead of ‘war’ because it seems a little more appropriate – let’s face it, I (sometimes) have the tendency to be a little dramatic J In this case, the battle isn’t all-consuming and there aren’t numerous casualties. Thus, it’s a battle, not a war.

I’m writing this particular post because I think (and I’m pretty confident in this assumption) that many people are guilty of doing the same thing I have – in my case, it’s what started my battle.

I stopped seeking with my WHOLE heart.

I hear and have heard so many people quote Jeremiah 29:11 (Jesus knows His plans for you, and He promises you hope and a future). I love this verse too, and I believe it; however, I continually found myself going to another verse, just two lines away: Jeremiah 29:13:

“You will seek me and find me when you seek with your whole heart.”

That sounds pretty basic, right? Who could possibly seek with only a partial heart? I thought this as well. So, after I discovered this verse, I fell in love with it, and it stuck with me – or at least I thought it did…

I’ve made so many important decisions in the past several years regarding college, my plan of study, my career, etc. In all those, I went back to this verse and made sure that I was seeking with my whole heart. To me, that meant seeing big-picture, asking God to reveal his will, discovering how I could honor Jesus through each circumstance, and putting myself aside to serve others.

I’ve found that at age 24, my life isn’t exactly what I thought it would be. All those important decisions I mentioned earlier brought me to even bigger and more thought-provoking crossroads. I hate to admit that I don’t even know at what point this happened, but looking back, I now realize my WHOLE-heart perspective that I once prided myself in attaining, was lost. blurred

Some people don’t believe in revelations. But I do. I believe that sometimes Jesus knows his children (especially a child like me) need a BIG reminder of our BIG God. He gave that to me through the continuing verses in Jeremiah 29, and I am so grateful.

Seeking with our whole heart means sitting face-to-face with Jesus. It means giving up yourself to Him and for Him in every way. And trust me, friends, when this happens, the result is not always what we think we want, but I’ve come to find, the will of God is ALWAYS sovereign and perfect. It’s NOT seeking to keep your life comfortable, and it’s NOT seeking to get what YOU think is best. As a matter of fact, I’ve learned that seeking to have a WHOLE-heart perspective is actually about seeking to have your whole heart filled with Jesus’s love, grace and mercy. It’s HIS spurpose and will, not mine.

Blessings in Disguise

I noticed a trend as I was inspired to add to my latest ANLTL posts. The trend is Christian music. It really speaks to me. Don’t get me wrong, those who know me, know that other music speaks to me, too. You’ll never meet another girl who has a stronger desire to strap on my boots and dance the night away when I hear some swinging honky tonk tunes. However, my blog inspirations lately have been straight from the radio waves as I cruise in my car with more than a little on my mind. I’m fully convinced that Jesus is saying, “Lyns, here you go. Here’s a little something to calm your heart.” I love my Savior for moments like these.

I haven’t been listening to the radio much lately, but each time I have turned it on, it seems “Blessings” by Laura Story is the only song in existence – and I’m grateful for it. Sometimes I wish I were a songwriter. Read these lyrics – this is good stuff!

“When darkness seems to win, we know that pain reminds this heart that this is not our home.”

What if my greatest disappointments, or the aching of this life, is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy?”

As a teacher, I’ve noticed how difficult it is to separate your personal life from professional. Though 5^th graders don’t seem to realize it, teachers are real people, too. This real person (and teacher) has brought tremendous struggles to work lately, but the words of this song relate to both.

I’ve transitioned this year from an 8^th grade teacher to 5^th grade. I’m teaching reading to 74 5^th graders at an elementary school. Since so many of you read about the woes of last year, I should mention, I LOVE this school. There really is a sense of love and possibility. What a contrast to my school last year! I’m so grateful for an administration that cares about kids – after all, that’s why we’re there in the first place (you’d be surprised how often the child-first mentality is overlooked in public education). I also made it my mission this year to take my stress and just let it go. I lived a crazy life my first year of teaching. I don’t know how people put up with me. I determined this year would be completely different.

It is different. I’m evolving and growing as a person and teacher. I love that. However, I’m still teaching a group of kids who are a reminder each day that sometimes darkness seems to be winning in our world more than light. (cue “Blessings” lyrics now) The pain in my heart comes from hearing that the parent of a 5^th grader has already “washed her hands” of her son. Darkness seems to win when I hear words come out of my students’ mouths that I would never want my own child to know. I see complete darkness when a little boy doesn’t think twice about raising his hand to hit a little girl in school. Some people may think just these few vague examples are not enough to use such strong descriptors like “darkness” or “aching,” but imagine being reminded of the absence of true light each and every day. I’ve always imagined children’s eyes being the bearers of joy, innocence and hope; but now, I mostly see them as a yearning for so much more than I can give during a 7-hour school day – then I realized it’s a yearning for more than anything or anyone can provide here on earth – a “thirst this world can’t satisfy.”

Some of these same times of darkness are also my greatest disappointments. As a teacher, I want to solve the world’s problems one student at a time. However, did you really read those lyrics!? As Christians who seek to live a life where light (instead of darkness) wins, we do have an everlasting thirst that this world can never satisfy. I suppose this is where the rest of the song that I haven’t quoted yet comes into play. The pain that I feel as a Christian for the world around me is nothing compared to the pain Jesus feels when His children are aching or lost. He gives us His blessings when we are truly broken with a thirst and longing for things only He can satisfy. His blessings come through raindrops, trials and sleepless nights. That’s right, it’s when we’re at our weakest that Jesus brings us strength to share these blessings with others who may need them, too. I don’t know about you, but I’m there. I’m noticing my raindrops, trails and sleepless nights, and making sure to see the blessings in each.

Get some “Blessings” here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SGniRk_GcLs

Here's the beginning of my 2nd year of teaching. A few pictures of my new 5th grade classroom in progress...

better than a hallelujah

I just completed my first year of teaching! No really -- I DID! I think I've been looking forward to June 10 since .... well, since the start of school! I don't think it has quite hit me yet, but my increasing free time sure is making me a believer.

My last post was in December. That's HALF of the school year ago! So... clearly I'm not going to win blogger of the year. I think I'm okay with that :) 

To sum up the past months would be nearly impossible. The months of December through April were the most stressful months of my life. I thought I had felt stress in college managing different events, studying for classes, and trying to figure out my future. Little did I know, I would look back at these events and laugh. For, the intensity, stress and seriousness of it all was nothing compared to my first year of teaching. 

The afore mentioned months were considered FCAT "crunch time" around our school. For those of you who don't follow public education, many people strive for you to view FCAT as just another time to gather data and check-up on students' learning. HOWEVER, don't be fooled :) FCAT (especially when you teach at a failing school, which is the case for me) is the culmination... the big kahuna... the biggest deal of the year... basically, it's IT. I could bore you with the "teacher speak" of all my testing preparations, but I shan't. Just trust me, I busted my booty to make sure my kids were as prepared as possible, just as they deserve. 

My call to teaching started with this phrase "one day all children in this nation will have the opportunity to attain an excellent education." That is the mission of Teach for America. I believe in the statement I just quoted. I believe that every child in this country should have an excellent, relentless educator. Moreover, I believe that every child deserves an educator who demands excellence from students. With that being said, we get to the title of my post today...finally, right?? 

I was taught and trained to teach based on so many amazing principles. I feel like I made some of those really work in my classroom: continually increase effectiveness, work relentlessly, etc. However, when the end of the school year came, I realized that this year was about more for me than academic successes for my kids and great professional development opportunities for myself. It was about life lessons .. cliche, I know, but oh, so appropriate here. Seriously, I'm a different person than I was in June 2010. How do I know that, you ask? Well ... Amy Grant told me so :) 

Grant sings "Better Than A Hallelujah" (see the link below). The chorus of this song says the following: "We pour out our miseries, God just hears a melody. Beautiful, the mess we are -- the honest cries of breaking hearts." The song goes on describe moments that are "better than a church bell ringing" or a "choir singing out." How beautiful are these words?!?

I've had so many moments of misery this year ... just ask those people who I called each day in tears or frustration or honest defeat. I finally had to realize that ALL of those moments -- all the moments I wanted to give up or wondered why I started this journey in the first place -- were moments to shape me and show me that God loves the cry of my breaking heart. He uses those moments to turn into His glory. I hate to admit how long it took me, but I think this blog is all about honesty. I don't think it was until the beginning of April (yes, that's 8 months into the school year) that I realized how much greater the "little victories" were in my classroom compared to a huge, emotional "come-to-Jesus" moment. God hears every cry, every laugh, every thought. Even the smallest of things, are the biggest to a mighty and powerful God. I know the post is getting long, but hold onto your horses! I'd like to share just a few of the moments from this year that I started to realize were better than a hallelujah:

- My first period class looked like a zoo on this particular morning. No behavioral plan or management technique could stop the vulgarity and apathy oozing from within our classroom. So I let down my guard, and I cried. I cried in front of my students in sheer fear that this was how the rest of their lives would look. And I shared that fear with 13 and 14-year-old students. It probably wasn't complete understood, but they knew something had to change... better than a hallelujah

- I shared in a previous post that Student "S" and I had a little "run-in" our classroom in December. Technically, she committed a felony by assaulting me. I decided I couldn't press charges on a 13-year-old, lost little girl. Later in the year she left the school in order to work on a healthier environment and lifestyle for her pregnancy and new baby boy. The moment I called to tell her that she passed FCAT Writing after starting the year at a Level 1 ... better than a hallelujah

- Student "C" considers herself a star basketball player for our school. She dreams of attending FSU and playing for the women's basketball team. She also has never been able to afford proper basketball shoes. For some reason, I'd kept my favorite pair from my senior year of high school for 5 years! The smile on her face after I passed them along to her and told her that when she is a Lady Seminole that's probably the only time I'll cheer for an FSU team ... better than a hallelujah

- Student "A" started out the year "hating my guts" as she now recalls. We were different. She didn't like my voice. She thought I would never understand her. She wasn't used to someone keeping her accountable or making her work hard. Through much prayer on my part, she and I began to bond a little more each week. Two weeks before school ended, she asked me how she could keep working hard over the summer. "What can I do to be really good in high school, Ms. Williamson?" she asked. That question melted my heart. That particular moment itself was better than a hallelujah, but it got even better the next week when I handed her the new books and writing workbooks I bought her from Barnes & Noble, along with envelopes addressed to me so we could keep in touch over the summer. I've never seen a smile so big ... better than a hallelujah

I don't know what the future holds for me. My blog title "A New Life to Love" has taken on a whole new meaning recently. I face uncharted waters and many new decisions, BUT I will cling to this new life-lesson of mine, that God loves me and teaches me even in the moments where I'm breaking or at the end of a road. I don't have to be at my happiest point or saving a million souls, He meets me right where I am and sees my tears and fears as better than a hallelujah. 

Listen to the inspiration for this post, "Better Than a Hallelujah" by Amy Grant:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rm5kx3xqmg0

For when I am weak, then I am strong!

I know that my faithful readers have been wondering where on earth has my blog gone!? – and by faithful readers, I mean my mom who acquired a taste for my blog this summer and who has not been satisfied in quite some time :) I have no excuses for my lack of connection with the blogosphere. I’ve told myself I’ve been too busy ever since I started teaching, but really I think it boils down to my fear of actually trying to put my experiences into words.

In my past entries, I’ve shared several encouraging Bible verses or songs, but today, I think it’s only appropriate that I finally share with you the verse that I’ve claimed as my “life verse” for several years:

But He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. 2 Corinthians 12:9-10

I picked this as “my” verse in middle school after a spiritual challenge given to me by a Bible teacher. I was told that a life verse would be something to always hold onto and make personal in times of joy or strife. Well, I never knew how true that would be for me. (I’ve found myself thinking this quite often lately!)

I need God’s grace now more than I ever have. And quite frankly, it is the only sufficient entity to get me through my days as a first year teacher.

As I haven’t blogged since before the start of the school year (oh, what high hopes I had for consistency with this blog!), I’ll give you a short synopsis of life: I moved to Jacksonville and am teaching three different subjects (Language Arts, Intensive Reading and Creative Writing) to 8^th graders at a K-8 campus in the northern part of the city. I never in my life imagined there could be such a challenge, but I still find myself getting out of bed daily, prepared to take on the world through the eyes of these 13 and 14 year olds.

The number of times that any form of the word “weak” appears in this verse should give you a clue as to what I’m about to say. Although I’ve worked incredibly hard to become a decent teacher (the part where I deliver necessary academic material to my pupils), still, my job is my weakness –- and by my job, I don’t mean teaching students to find the main idea of a story or to write in complete sentence. I mean my job that enlists me to enter a school everyday where kids are desperately in need of someone who believes in them. I mean my job where I’ve already filled out two separate police reports for incidences in my classroom. I mean my job where students know more about worldliness than I ever dreamed at that age. I mean my job where my heart broke as a student quietly begged me to bring her Orajel the following day for a painful toothache, because she knew her mom could not take her to the dentist. I mean my job that requires me to study not only the material that I’m teaching the next day but the students to whom it is being delivered.

I claim the above verse, because THANK GOD that HIS power rests on me BECAUSE I am weak. The fleeting hardships and persecutions I’ve faced in my classroom are the very things that make the revealing of Christ possible. My building-minded brother and boyfriend will like this next part :) I like to think of this analogy when I picture myself in my classroom (aka my mission field): A nail. I see it metal, shiny and pointy – pretty much everything it’s supposed to look like. BUT a nail is not serving its real purpose until it is hammered or beat down over and over again until it is holding together those two pieces of wood. How will the Lord’s work be done if we, as his missionaries, are not hammered down until we reveal HIS purpose?

My prayer is that I delight in these weaknesses, because the Lord’s glory is growing brighter with every passing day. 

Take a peek inside!

I may not have taken the time to share anything too exciting with you recently, but here's a peek into the room that has received my full attention... 

                                            Setting up my room before school started :)

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